Time is not flying, it might be on UFO, moving in the speed we cannot measure in units we have. Never thought it was two months later that I come here write something again, yes I always write write write, but seldom for myself.

 

Having ran through a big half of probably the last campus days, always ask myself what I reaped, with a big amount of money gone, with a half-year away when peers are striving on a new stage of life. Um…Might be a disappointing answer to my parents, and others who hopes a shinning future on me. I did a not very good job in academic, one course was even in danger getting pass.

 

To all honesty, I don’t see an essential difference studying in Hong Kong and Mainland; I think it is simply about relativity. Don’t want to specific here. Academic is academic after all, at least in postgraduate level, I don’t see much effeteness and practicability here. I could not help falling asleep in two out of four courses.

 

Whereas I enjoy staying here, in this best city that I have ever been to, you say I don’t know there are a lot of good places in the world, anyway, I believe it is at least one of best, or how can it be so developed. You can tell lots of fun besides shopping if you wonder into varied pats of it.

 

I tell Trina, leave the burden away, don’t take it a money pool, just a switch in living environment, back it the face as a nice place.

 

Again, the biggest thanks to Mom and Dad. Happy new year to all…

 

 

Probably I am loving this city.

Excited,for the most fantastic musical I have ever seen.

Extremely excited...

 

When I saw your message,tears came.

I have never been so lucky to have such a friend like you.

 

 

Tonight when surfing , all of a sudden,I pull all the names out of my mind.. How are you there,my friends?

 

希 is going to the remote place, where I dreamed to for awhile. After hours of dark, eventually to an unknown land. Take care,希,once be my first friend in middle school time.

 

Also the case with蚊子. Hope things go fine with this fairy, tender and hard-working girl.

 

君must be working now, under the sound brand name with the amazingly attractive salary that I really envy. Smart and tender as you are, hope you have a happy taste for a busy life that deserve your great decision.

 

菲 start her career also. Obviously everyone will love you, little Winnie. Really be that selfish, hope you won’t change any on your lovely face with years gone.

 

筱 chose another path. There she go, somewhere I don’t think nice anymore. I don’t know if we are still the best friends. Do hope to receive her letter once more, as it was four years ago. Leaves turn red yet? Please do let me know, In your snow-white letter-paper.

 

栗子 goes unsmooth, bearing something that are not supposed be on her tiny shoulders. Don’t cry, girl, never forget to turn to us.

 

芳began on, 隆 began on, 姜丝 might be preparing. For others, Oct hands on very well, Finn is staying in the same battle with me.

 

Don’t know how is Lee doing…

…….

Under the cloudy sky of this strange city, I prey for all of you lovely guys.

 

Do take care, friends.

 

 

Loud days have gone, leave me alone with the busy preparation, for entering campus once again.

 

Agile leaves me a bad impression at last. For the dorm’s sake, for the e-mail’s sake. I thought I would miss those, but actually I don’t, not even for the people. No friendship will last long without to keep contact.

 

I am packing things up. Around my head is a question: why I have so many stuff? This, that, that, that, and that, so so many! You can’t imagine! Am I going to Nanjing again as four years  ago??

 

I guess I was born with stuff, hand with a toy, mouth with jewelleries, even my hair, with something hidden inside.

---“Go have dinner, accompany you”

--- “No thanks, I don’t even want to move”

---“What do you want to eat? Fetch for you”

      …

---“Don’t treat me so well! I’ve been spoiled badly as you see!! ”

      …

---“ Few chances left to spoil you.”

      …

 

Then was happy. Then was sad.  

 

I let it known at last, you know, like release a huge stone. Michael have known, so does Peggie, and those guys in both departments that I served and serve. Everything goes all right, nothing out of expectation. The change is only on me, as Linkin Park singing, I bleed it out! take a deep breath and just throwing away.! I bleed it out! take a deep breath and just throwing away.!

 

It is my style that I won’t open if stuff is not completely confirmed or it is still far from the points, I am not like telling ahead, I like say it and soon to do it, just like keeping a cheese cake all along the way, sweet only with myself, cautious, but selfish. But deep down, so what if I let somebody and everyone know? In the case now, as for the manager, it won’t disturb their mind a bit by loosing an indifferent tiny employee; For the colleagues, it simply add one more piece of little talking topic in their tired and common days, like seeing the sun raise and set.

 

None will last long. I am no one, I am everyone.

 

But can’t help to say, there goes an unfriendly guy, to try to keep me away from the happy ending. You may say I am sensitive, but I do! Towards those ladies who like say something in the dark! What’s irritating, she even let out my secret that so called “be forced to keep for a long time” in her mouth in front of guys!

 

As I always say, you can find people of every sort, as long as you can imagine. Particularly, women! Absolutely funny!

 

If any, it is not my choice to be a woman.  

   

 

 

 

 

 

Finally I decide to get down on it,writing something personal online,that I always refused for reasons. This has been a long-term plan, but haven’t worked before because, I don’t think I can keep on dealing with it everyday, or at least once a week, it is my bearable maximum update term. I can’t stand that with it opening, but nothing filled in periodically, like raising a lovely doggy without feeding it or half feed it simply because you have something more important than that, surely it will vanish away soon,I don't want to see a garden that abandoned and faded away when I open again  . Of course you probally being able to get yourself away with excuses, but, it makes no sense , right?

 

Ok, start on the right moment, 21:08 3^rd August.

 

Not so pleasing as these days, other than those before I went back Nanjing for my graduation. I don’t know why, maybe the little lucky angel is not at your side again since she mind my leaving her alone as to heading to Nanjing to be with my baby, maybe now it just what I should be, who knows, we little bears never have the rights to control our comes and goes. Unhappy as I am, however,I don’t sigh my days away, my schedule leave me no time for staying still and upset, it is closer and closer, from what I now assume as a tough and the most demanding job that I ever have. I now automatically wrap myself around with English, listening, speaking to myself, reading…everything~ now if the road there goes a shit(no mistake,absolutely a piece of shit!) with English on, I probally will pick up and keep it as a golden mine~ Yep, I’ve found it immediately so urgent that the English to me! It is going to be my first language so soon. No kidding, absolutely.!

 

I still barely find confidence when it comes to speaking. Why such a talkative girl could abnormally become silent and unintelligent when face that tiny little “English” evil?! what a smart child as I am! What’s even more amusing, I always think I speak very good English! (acturally it is true when I simply read and without my own creation) Absolutely unbelievable and unacceptable when I feel the words stucked there in my mouth but cannot let out!! Just as holding water in the locked mouth! 

 

But on the other side the case comforts me a bit in my frendship. Friendship is the only one you can count on when the unhappiness booms, I always think it that way. So I cherish, even though not keeping frequent contact. Ling received my present and sent messages as appreciation. Matt reverted my e-mail after a long time out of contact. And, I find the two trainees are also “could-be” friends. The most glad and supprised and moved moment came yesterday, when I found Oct’s QQ signature, “Dill’z, think of your look when we were singing together, amazing” I am now still entirely moved by these simple words the moment I saw it. You know, I am such an easy-moved guy, I just cannot easily take it off my mind off my heart when someone put me on her signature that opened to everyone, not simply feed my cheap vanity, but fulfill my sensitive heart towards friendship.

 

Of course didn’t forget about Biangbiang, tryed to cheer me up by say“It’s good to experience another kinda work before going” .With this piece of plain advice, I try to keep good mood this day, really helpful.

 

Thanks for all. Thanks for everyone. It’s not that suffering to go through the downs with all of you lovely guys~